write

Dan:

These words are for you, they contain the significance of our mutual desires....beeevvvaaarrrre!

you "should" have written 10 pages or more, you were distracted by tasks preventing your in-habitation of "the zone."
I responded: "Just do it, man."
you responded "that's not an answer, Ryan" - a paternal gesture, authorizing your reprimanding my response.

Now, as I was leaving, I began (to write this):

I do not mean to give you an answer, but only a command- that you expect an answer to emerge, that you worship (returning over and over again to) a perpetually hypothetical existence of yourself - this is an insult to the agency of your consciousness and your force as a thinker, reader, and most importantly your capabilities as a writer (which is one-who-WRITES, not one-who-has-written). The perpetuation of the intangibility of your existence is the silence, the non-thing, which demands from you a ceaseless and unrestrained attack. This is, for instance, why I suggested that you run. The process of running is perhaps the most immediate and tangible way to devastate one's physical homeostasis in the sense that when you run, you approach directly the limitations of your body- you need air, rest, reprieve, to relent against yourself- but it is also of course similarly effective and direct in destroying intangibility and the confusing distances of one's imagination- being lost within the mundane endlessness of oneself. I compare it to the sensation I used to achieve when vacuuming the dinning area of coffman memorial union. The cacophonous whining buzz of inextricable, unisolatable frequencies, overdrive without melody, encouraged meditation and focus through the elimination of the distances of one's imagination and silence- it destroyed the distance of the aural atmosphere.

That which offers resistance to articulation is necessarily (always and already) endowed with an element of mysticism, in that it eludes the materiality of language/signification by hearkening back to metaphysical concepts of permanence, time, and ceaseless meaning-
of that-which-remains-yet-to-be-seen
of divine tautology
of a future
of not.yet.
of beyond
of UseLessNess.